Growing Up

It's only on nights like tonight that I realize how young I really am. :) How is it that I can be so small and insignifigant but still have a God who loves me so much. It's really funny because I'll talk myself into a rut and begin to believe that I am nothing. I start thinking that I have so many issues and could never even be a good friend, never mind a good anything else. And I just talk myself down deeper and deeper. But then I smack myself and realize that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me. It doesn't even matter what I think of me. It hardly matters if I walk around this life alone because no one wants a broken person... because God does. And that is enough. God put so much effort and love into me. Even if no one thinks I am fit for ministry or anything.... God has a plan for my life. And the truth is I am not really fit for anything. But God made me just the way I am and loves me with more love than I could ever imagine. I don't know if I'll ever feel "grown up" or self secure but I always know that my Abba's arms are opened wide for me. And I guess that's all that ever really mattered.